"Bradley" ©2009
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Christmas Without Me
by Betty Baker Bailey You're planning Christmas without me, whatever Christmas is. I've heard talk of mistletoe and buying gifts for Liz. You're planning Christmas without me. I wonder where I'll go. They say it's just too early for me to even know. You're planning Christmas without me, though it's not too far away. Don't you know that I'm not ready to come outside and play? What are Christmas bells? Who are Santa's elves? Are there presents for me? Is snow really cold? Why is Grandma old? I can hardly wait to see. You're planning Christmas without me. You never say my name. All I hear is how my Daddy is the one to blame. You're planning Christmas without me. You act like I'm not here. I think this Doctor Coldheart is someone I should fear. You're planning Christmas without me, yet you seem to be so sad. I would think our first holiday would make you really glad. What's a tree-top star? When's the craft bizarre? Are there manger scenes about? What's a Christmas tree? Just who is this He This Christmas is all about? You're planning Christmas without me. I wish it was not so. Without a place inside you, I don't know where I'll go. You're planning Christmas without me, as if I never was. I do not think I'll like what this Coldheart doctor does. You're planning Christmas without me. What'd I do that was so bad? If you'll just let me stay with you, I'll never make you mad. Hear that Christmas bell? How do cookies smell? Will I get to taste fudge? How do reindeer fly? Do you think that I Am just useless human sludge? You're planning Christmas without me. I heard you had to pay To get that Coldheart doctor to take my life away. You're planning Christmas without me. Do you not hear my cries? Don't you know I love you, Mommy. Can't we compromise? You're planning Christmas without me, and I don't have any say. You're going to let him hurt me. I'll not see Christmas Day. What are Christmas lights? Why are "women's rights" More important than me? Did you deck the halls With some Christmas balls? Oh, how much I'd like to see! You're planning Christmas without me. Why must it be this way? You think the babe of Christmas intended me for prey? You're planning Christmas without me. That must be Him who cries. Guess you can't hear Him either, when list'ning to their lies. You're planning Christmas without me. I had hoped you'd change your mind. How can you think things'll be better once you leave me behind? How do Chestnuts roast? Will you make a toast To welcome your New Year? What does paper wrap? Think I'll take a nap. Why do you not hold me dear? You're planning Christmas without me. I'll miss you, Mommy, dear. You'll never know who I was. My voice you'll never hear. You're planning Christmas without me. You'll never hold me close. You won't be kissing my cheeks; that's what I'll miss the most. You're planning Christmas without me, though I fight to stay alive. If only you had loved me, too, so that I could survive. What's a Christmas wreath? Are there gifts beneath Your decorated tree? On some lonely night Do you think you might Ever even think of me? |